Review: My Darkest Passion (My Immortals #5) by Carolyn Jewel

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Review: My Darkest Passion (My Immortals #5) by Carolyn Jewel four-stars
My Darkest Passion by Carolyn Jewel
Series: My Immortals #5
Published by cJewel Books on April 17, 2013
Genres: PNR, Romance
Pages: 368
Format: eBook
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A Debt of Honor
Addison O’Henry has no idea magic is real or that the fragile peace between the magekind—humans who can use magic—and demons is about to shatter. All that changes the day she’s abducted by one of the magekind. After a ritual murder goes horribly wrong, Addison ends up with demon-sourced magic that nearly kills her. But for the intervention of demon Harsh Marit, she might not have survived. Though Harsh does what he can to help her return to what used to be normal, they both know her life will never be the same.

Their Darkest Passion Explored...

With corrupt mages threatening them both, her honor requires her to help Harsh and the demon warlord he serves. If that means accepting her power and the high rank it confers on her, so be it. Now her once distant relationship with Harsh turns hot and immediate as the two of them explore the dark passion of a forbidden relationship.

One more tibdit. Those of you who might have thought Kynan Aijan was off the market because he had a girlfriend in previous stories? He’s available. Big hints are being dropped about Kynan.

Dr. Harsh Marit! Finally!

I feel conflicted about this one. Dr. Harsh Marit has been one of my favorite secondary characters in this series for some time. I was excited to see how his book would go but I have some feels about the dark subject matter of Harsh’s book.

My Darkest Passion is…difficult for me in some ways. The heroine of the story – Addison – was raped and impregnated by a mageheld under directive to do so. I’ve been expecting this [rape] would go down eventually as the magekind is looking to start a breeding program. My Immortal Assassin showed the lengths mages were willing to go through to get access to more power – this is a logical conclusion.

I would say that My Immortals as a series is rather dark (for a romance, that is) while each individual book has its own issues (or not) to tackle. I feel that My Darkest Passion really dives back into that dark space with the kidnapping, rape and impregnation of Addison. Ms Jewel tackles several subjects in My Darkest Passion: misogyny, power corrupted, rape + pregnancy and slavery.

Addison O’Henry is a normal college student without a care in the world until the day she is kidnapped. A mage who wanted to start a [demon] breeding program forced one of his magehelds to go out and kidnap a woman to impregnate. All sorts of things go horribly wrong (as if kidnapping and rape wasn’t bad enough) so the mage wants to have Addison killed. This decision leads to Kynan and Harsh coming to the location where Addison was being held and freeing her. Later, when Harsh confronts the mage who had Addison kidnapped and raped, the mage’s reply was classic misogyny with a nice helping of victim blaming on top:

“She was in the wrong place at the wrong time. That’s not my fucking fault. She should have stayed at home like a good girl.”
-locations 2622

…stayed at home like a good girl.” Gosh that statement made me see RED since it’s typical victim blaming BS. Of course, a man who is willing to enslave others (demons) and have an innocent kidnapped and raped (for his own evil reasons) would never take responsibility for his actions or even consider himself wrong. All must happen as he wants because it is he who wants it. The mage – Giuseppe Infante – seems to be pretty typical of the magekind: although he claims to “protect humans” from demons in reality he is willing to sacrifice any and all to obtain the most power possible. The power that magekind claims it uses solely for the protection of human kind has corrupted the magekind to perversion instead.

“You realize, don’t you, what’s going on in San Diego? Elsewhere, too. There are fewer of us now so they’ve taken to running breeding programs. Our children, born into slavery.”
– location 3422

The plot line with Addison’s rape and pregnancy was handled by Ms Jewel with such care. Addison was given time and space. She made the decision to keep the baby because the person who impregnated her desperately did not want to take part in it.

“These things take time,” he said. “I can wait.”

She lifted her head, and he could have died from the pain he saw there. “Bejar cried, you know.”

He didn’t answer.

“After the first time he did that. To me.” She sniffed, and he looked around for tissues. “He didn’t want to do any of it, but that asshole Infante made him.”
– location 2129

I can’t imagine the pain – knowing that you are creating a child…and knowing that the child will be born into slavery and most likely die in slavery, knowing little to no love and affection. These very same atrocities parallel those found in America’s past.

Addison’s rape is not on page – taking place before the beginning of the book – and I felt her responses and her required healing time were very well done. My Darkest Passion seems to be spread out over the longest time period thus far: about two years from the beginning to the ending of the novel. I truly appreciated this length because it gave Addison time to heal from her trauma instead of the typical romance behavior of “super healing sex.”

Once Addison started to heal My Darkest Passion really took off for me. Addison was a kickass person (her friends call her Awesome) before she was kidnapped and she became a complete badass after. I loved the fact that Ms Jewel didn’t give the impression that Addison’s trauma was the reason for her badassness – Addison was just leveled up when she acquired Warlord level powers. Addison wasn’t being rescued by Harsh, Addison was rescuing Harsh. !! Loved it. LOVED all of it. Loved Addison’s badassness. Loved the new Kin she saved and swore to her. LOVED Harsh.

Now…I’m waiting anxiously for book #7 – Kynan & Maddy’s book – to drop. GIVE IT TO ME!! NOOOOW

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